So it's been months since I've written anything...I've come up with plenty of excuses. I am to busy, intimidated(yes, really), and frustrated...I have felt suffocated, claustrophobic, lazy...and finally, cranky.
Cranky. When we moved back in February I was excited about the fresh start...a new place...new people. Admittingly, things were a bit more difficult then I had anticipated. Ella had a rough time adjusting. When you are surrounded by little children one minute and then a large forest with a cell tower in the next, well, it can be a bit intimidating.
My business needed a huge boost. I had just built it up only to start over again. It was tough, but I was doing it!
Then Erich was injured in an elevator accident. His leg was crushed when the elevator suddenly dropped while he was getting on. It has been over 3 1/2 months and he is still dealing with an open wound...just now starting to walk on it.
I have been treading water. Sometimes I feel like I am being dragged under with no chance for a breath of air. I am going to let you in on a little secret...I am a control freak...a major planner. I know God is in control..I believe and trust in that with my whole heart and soul, but my sinful nature...my natural tendency to want a say in everything...always seems to creep up and take control. It makes me crazy.
SO. I have decided that this particular blog was meant to be somewhat therapeutic, a purging of sorts...spewing things on the page just so I can get words on the screen again...just to begin again...
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